From the Heart...

I'm sitting here, staring at a blank screen reflecting upon my life...at some of the decisions I've made, the path I've chosen to pave, and mistakes I have made along the way. Some of the choices I've made has left scares that only began to heal when I ran into the arms of a loving Heavenly Father, my Abba Father! Allowing scars to heal from past brokenness is not easy and for those who have never been brokenhearted before the struggle may be hard to understand. I have learned healing is a process that takes time of which that time lies in God's hands as the psalmist David wrote. In the process of being healed sometimes you may hurt people that care about you unintentionally . It's easy for people to turn to things that will bring a temporary "quick fix" in their life instead of allowing God to mend their broken heart. A broken and contrite spirit is one He will not despise because in His word it says: "The Lord is near to the brokenhearted and saves the crushed in spirit." God is still in the healing business, "He heals the brokenhearted and binds up their wounds" and that is what He did for me!


As I look back at my life and reflect upon certain incidents I can recall having several "smh" [shake my head] moments when I wish I made wiser decisions. This is one of those moments for me. Lately I've been going through some fiery trials that have slowly grown and shaped me into the woman I am becoming. Instead of becoming angry and questioning God for some of the things I've had to endure, all I can do is simply raise my two hands and begin worshiping Him for who He truly is because it is not about me, but ALL about Him---that is part of dying to self. A true christian is never exempt from suffering. In fact, [Romans 5:3-4] states we should "rejoice in our sufferings, knowing that suffering produces endurance, and endurance produces character, and character produces hope."


Saints of God, all this suffering we will have to endure here on earth does not compare to the future glory we will receive! How else are we expected to grow in our faith and become more like Him in our character unless we suffer for His name sake and persevere through the trial? That is when the genuineness of our faith will prove true of which; it is impossible to please God without faith. Look at Job! I thank God for choosing an ordinary man like Paul who used to persecute Christians to write one-third of the new testament. He was no stranger to suffering or brokenness! Some people may look at the calamity in the world and question if there is a God, why He would allow some of the disasters going on in the world. Well I'm here to tell you there IS a God and ALL of us like sheep have gone astray from our shepherd. If your called to do mighty works for the Lord to glorify and lift His name on high, there is a major price to pay. Not many are willing to persevere and pay the price though. That is partially why many are called but few are chosen. 


The bible says in [Ephesians 6:12] "For we do not wrestle against flesh and blood, but against the rulers, against the authorities, against the cosmic powers over this present darkness, against the spiritual forces of evil in the heavenly places." I have come to understand the reality of this piece of scripture. That is why He goes on further to instruct us in proceeding verses to put on the whole armor of God: the belt of truth, the breastplate of righteousness, the gospel of peace as our shoes, your shield of faith, a helmet of salvation and the mighty sword of the spirit which is the word of God. There is an unseen war going on in the spiritual realm in these end times, that is why it is important to be steadfast in the word of God because those who know their God will do exploits and instruct many. (If you do not believe we are in the end times, I encourage you to listen to Irvin Baxter on youtube.) God has brought me a long way and is in the process of making me whole, but there are more miles to go in this long journey that lies ahead. I've heard the expression, "When I'm down to nothing, God is up to something!" It's true! In the midst of confusion brought on by the enemy, I have learned the importance of worship, not being ashamed to stand up for His name...and trusting in God at all times to guide, protect, and deliver me from the schemes of the enemy. No one said this journey would be easy, but it it worth the cost! :)

Identification Crisis

Upon looking at the image of a social security card one day, it sparked the thought for me to reflect upon my identity. Who am I? When this question was presented to me once, I found myself confused trying to provide an answer. That was because I did not know who my God was. In this world we have several forms of Identification from drivers licenses, social security cards, green cards and passports. These mere forms of Identification one can carry in his or her pocket may provide recognition while traveling, but do not define who we are. Often times individuals will let others define who they are without considering their biblical role and standing on God's word when it comes to their identity. I struggled with finding my identity for a while...seventeen years to be exact. That was before I found Christ and He begun to do a mighty work in me. For seventeen years I let the world and the labels of others define who I am instead of looking to the almighty God who turned this clay into a creation. Instead of looking through the eyes of man to figure out who you are, look to God."Therefore, if anyone is in Christ, he is a new creation. The old has passed away; behold the new has come."  [2 Corinthians 5:17] Since I became a new creature in Christ, I had to redefine who I am because now I took on His name (Jesus) through baptism the way a bride takes on the name of her bridegroom when she gets married. Taking on His name has caused a complete 180 degree turn in my life for the better. It has changed the way I perceive things, communicate with others, who I associate with, and even how I dress. I thank God I now know who I am because my identity lies in Him!

I was asked this question on December 19, 2009 and while diligently searching...it was answered on June 17, 2010 not too long after I experienced the baptism of the Holy Ghost with evidence of speaking in tongues. 

I am a child of God
I am the daughter of the most High King
I am a future wife
I am a future mother
I am valuable
I am qualified
I am a friend of God
I am more than a conquer through Christ
I am a writer
I am compassionate
I am a leader
I am set apart
I am the head and not the tail
I am a royal priesthood
I am bought with a price
I am forgiven

God's Message to Women - Author Unkown

As I was reading the book "Desired by the King" by Ruth Rieder, I came across this lovely poem today and thought I should share. It is important that more women start to stand up and know their biblical role. Enjoy!

When I created the heavens and the earth, I spoke them into being.When I created man, I formed him and breathed life into his nostrils. But you woman, I fashioned after I breathed the breath of life into man because your nostrils are too delicate. I allowed a deep sleep to come over him so I could patiently fashion you. Man was put to sleep so that he could not interfere with the creativity. 

From one bone I fashioned you, and I choose the bone that protects man's life. I choose the rib, which protects his heart and lungs and supports him as you are meant to do. Around this one bone, I shaped and molded you.

I created you perfectly and beautifully. Your characteristics are as the rib, strong yet delicate and fragile. You provide protection for the most delicate organ in man, his heart. His heart is the center of his being; his lungs hold the breath of life. The rib cage will allow itself to be broken before it will allow damage to his heart. Support man as the rib cage supports the body. You were not taken from his feet to be under him, nor were you taken from his head to be above him. You were taken from his side to be held close as you stand beside him.

I have caressed your face in your deepest sleep. I have held your heart close to Mine. Adam walked with Me in the cool of the day and yet he was lonely. He could not see or touch Me but could only feel My presence. So I fashioned in you everything I wanted Adam to share and experience with Me; My holiness, My strength, My purity, My love, My protection and support.

You are special because you are an extension of Me. Man represents My image- woman My emotions. Together, you represent the totality of God. 

So man, treat woman well. Love and respect her, for she is fragile. In hurting her, you hurt Me. In crushing her, you only damage your own heart. Woman, support man. In humility, show him the power of emotion I have placed within you. In gentle quietness show your strength. In love, show him that you are the rib that protects his inner self.